(Where, oh where, did you go?)
As I sit hunched on a couch, snot seemingly coming out of my nose by the bucket-full (I’m sick), furiously pushing buttons to furiously wipe out cobras, and goblins, and every other creature on Gauntlet: Dark Legacy, while furiously ignoring my homework, I am afraid.
I over analyze by nature. And today I am over analyzing why the prospect of doing homework, and cleaning, and laundry is so daunting and grotesque. Mostly the homework bit.
I’ve narrowed it down to two extremes: A) we had three snow days, in which I did nothing but watch movies, play video games and eat copious amounts of junk food. I’m still in that blizzard mindset, while Columbia has already pulled through. Or it’s B) Library Science is dull. So mundane. and unchallengeable, that I feel sheepish every time somebody asks me what I plan on doing when I graduate. Because it’s undeniably 9 to 5. It’s repetition, and worse! it’s utterly feminine. Library Science is what I had originally planned to do when I retire. Now, everything is backwards. And I can’t help but feel a little disappointed that that was the best I could come up with to start.
But I dread less, because I do have something else in mind. A job that is somewhat realistic. I remember being asked in Writer’s Portfolio last year to write a list of dream jobs. I had 1) be Darth Vader and 2) be a professional coloring book artist. Jesus, no wonder why Brenner hated me.
This one, however, is real. Write for The Onion. Oh, I could see it, and I could see it making me very happy. It’s writing, and it’s witty, and it’s all absurd. That’s pretty much my Holy Trinity, right there. How could I not love it?
Maybe that’s the ultimate issue, knowing that I have to do something not as awesome first. It’s High School before College, all over again. But you have to take it with dignity, and you have to know (pretend?) that you’re going to get something out of it.
Off topic, but growing up, did anyone actually have growing pains? Do those literally exist?
(….meanwhile procrastination peaks)
